2005-09-23

okay, so I've been neglecting myself...

Okay, okay. I think I need to pause.

Last night was interesting. I slept for most of it, but got up for a couple of hours inbetween after hearing a group of (drunken) lads get out a taxi after a night out (at 3am).

I just wasn't well enough to be much use, so I ended up going back to bed. Shivering.

I then had trouble falling asleep, despite my exhaustion, because of the nausea I was experiencing.

All you Myalgic Encephalomyelitis , Chronic Fatigue Syndrome , and Post Viral Fatigue Syndrome sufferers out there I'm sure can relate.

Anyway a few Rennies later, I managed to get to sleep. I got up late this morning, still shivering and feeling worse for wear. And am about to return to bed.

I need to just pause and look after myself. To stop worrying about things, and to sleep.

I've not been eating properly, which I'm guessing is the reason why I feel so bad at the moment. That, coupled with the stress I had been experiencing these last couple of weeks, I'm sure have not helped matters.

I'm usually so good with food now. I used to be anorexic (years ago when I first developed PVFS). But for years now, I've made it a point to not skip meals, to eat as many vegetables as possible, and whenever possible, to drink fresh juice.

I'm rarely well enough to juice myself, but sometimes my relative does it for me. A pint and a half of fresh juice peps me up no end...

I've also been neglecting my nutritional supplement regime. Naughty Claire. Must stop being so pathetic and look after myself as I'm withering away here.

Off I go to bed...

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