2005-02-14

sad and teary

I'm not so good today. And I've been feeling abit down and teary - not sure why. Actually I've been feeling like this for the past couple of days.

I'm not usually teary so it's wierd for me to feel like this but I'm sure it'll pass.

I've been feeling like this for the past few days and I'm thinking it's partly because I was already feeling weak before I went to see my nutritionist on Saturday. I felt so awful once I got back from seeing her and I think it's just really wiped me out.

But I don't think it's the whole reason.

Sometimes having this illness really gets me down.

I try not to let it take over me, but sometimes I do have times where I am sad. I'm sad about not being able to remember the last time I 'had a laugh' with anyone. Or went out and had a good time with my friends.

I'm sad about seeing other people make their lives while I'm stuck in limbo.

These past few days, I've been sad about a lot of things. My head and eyes now ache from the memory of the tears that streamed down my face a few hours ago.

And now, I sit here, numb. The sadness has ebbed away for a while. And I hope it goes away for a long time so I can think happy thoughts again.

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